I just feel so numb and exhausted and i can’t do anything. I can’t set my mind to sitting down and reading a book, or finishing homework or concentrating on a single task for long. I get bored of my food, I get bored of the words coming out of my mouth, I get bored of being alone and then not being alone. I don’t want to be anywhere, and I don’t want to be doing anything. My head keeps pounding and I don’t know whats changed, or whats about to happen. I just have this bad feeling. It’s horrible. I’m just fucking miserable, with occasional rushes of too many feelings at once, like I’m going to start crying or burst out laughing. Acting normal just happens, I don’t have to put it on but it doesn’t change how I feel inside or when i get a moment to think. Nothing is interesting, everything is boring.
Posted on Monday the 30th of April 2012 at 8:58 PM